The past few days, I've been getting ready for LK's first birthday so I've been reflecting over the past year of her life. I am so thankful the Lord blessed us with her, I don't even have words to say.

Last night, I was going back through old facebook notes, and I came across one I had written when I miscarried. It was a profound reflection on the Lord's absolute, passionate pursuit of His Glory. You see not only did he answer my most heart-felt prayers, He abundantly exceeded ALL of my expectations. We serve a God who LOVES US and proves his redeeming love over and over and over - especially in the hard times.

I want to share what I wrote so you can see exactly what I'm talking about. My only hesitation is that I do NOT want to make anyone sad with sharing this. Please understand my purpose is to reveal the full impact of how the Lord answers prayer! "The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance" (Psalm 16:6)


Well, I'm laying on my couch. I laying here waiting and wondering if I still have a baby or if I have already miscarried. It's such a weird feeling. I've been talking to the Lord a lot. It's amazing how durable His peace is. I'm not really scared anymore. I know God is in control. I can actually feel it. I will admit I try not to think about what is actually going on. But when I do, I think about the Lord's plan. I don't understand it, I don't agree with it, I don't like it and I would definitely do things differently. But, regardless, He is good enough to have a plan. It is not in my hands. So, I 'm just laying here waiting.

I think the most astounding thing of all during this tragedy is the amazing depth of love that has grown in my heart. At night, Kyle and I read a Psalm, not every night but frequently. We were on Psalm 16 on Sunday night and I had Kyle read it to me in the hotel room after we got back from the ER. Verse 6 says, "The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places". I can't get that verse out of my head. I know it's because it is so true. I have the most incredible husband. I know that my love for him has grown to a new depth. On top of that, I have an incredible family (blood related and church family) who pour out their love for me in prayers and words of encouragement.

Whenever I would break up with a boy my mom would always tell me that the pain I felt just made more room in my heart to love even deeper. I think the same concept applies. I'm so excited about being a mom and I know that when we are blessed with a baby that my love will be even deeper.

Psalm 16
A miktam of David. [a]
1 Keep me safe, O God,
for in you I take refuge.
2 I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing."

3 As for the saints who are in the land,
they are the glorious ones in whom is all my delight. [b]

4 The sorrows of those will increase
who run after other gods.
I will not pour out their libations of blood
or take up their names on my lips.

5 LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;
you have made my lot secure.

6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.

7 I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.

8 I have set the LORD always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.

9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,

10 because you will not abandon me to the grave, [c]
nor will you let your Holy One [d] see decay.

11 You have made [e] known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Love,
Carrie